I do not know why I have to be being a jerk in this situation. I supposed to be one of his place to calm down, to protect him too. But why the hell am I being so freakinly annoying and being a jerk. Am I jerk? I am a jerk. Am I? Ergh.
I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you on your darkest hour. If a quote says "hard time reveals true friends" and I'm not there on your hard times, it doesn't mean I don't care about you, doesn't mean I don't want to be your true friend, your true one. I'm so sorry I was being so emotional so I couldn't manage things instead screwed it up.
I couldn't help myself. I don't know what else to say. I am so sorry. So sorry. From my deepest, I regret all of the things that happened. I am so sorry being like a maniac and so annoyed you. I promise everything's gonna be fine. I do promise you this one.

To my best person in my life:
Ma Schatz, arf.